THE TRAFFIC SIGNAL
The soap just slipped off from
hands. And by the speed at which the bucket fills, it seems that even the water
from the tap is not awake from its slumber.
Blame Budweiser! I cursed in
my mind. Last night was a blast. One of my roommates is getting married in a
week and it was his treat. As he says, the beginning of “ the last week of
freedom”, for him. We all drank, danced, drank, ate, drank, shouted, drank and
drank and drank. At some point in the night, we slept, as if we were shot dead.
And now I am standing in the bathroom , woke up late , struggling to get ready
in time and reach the office, and this damn soap doesn't give a damn about my
feelings. Damn!
Somehow I got ready and as usual
had the cup of black tea, the daily breakfast , and grabbed my scooter key and
ram downstairs of my apartment building. This part is the killer one. My
apartment building is a 4-storeyed building and guess what, we stay on top! And
after having a “sumptuous” breakfast, the breakfast itself melts away after
running down all those stairs. Damn!
And the next hurdle. I own a
submissive, sleek and slim Vespa and it doesn't take much space in the parking
lot. But I seriously do not know how on earth does the parking lot turns in to
“parking- a- lot” in the morning. And now, I have to figure out a way to get my
Vespa out and start smoking to my office.
Finally, I hit the road. Well,
one cannot absolutely say that he or she “hits” the road in this City. The
traffic is too much that sometimes these roads can be the best teachers to
teach patience. I am proud that I am a very, very patient guy! Yes, I learnt it
the hard way. But, I love the morning ride to my office. Obviously, the traffic
is much less compared to the hectic evenings, but what I love the most is the
cool breeze while I speed on my Vespa and also the beautiful girls who either
ride on their scooters or sit at the back side of their boyfriends’ bikes.
Either way, I don’t mind! No, wait. I do mind, because I have been waiting for
a long time for a girl with whom I can ride on my scooter. I am pretty sure
that, even my Vespa dreams of it!
To be precise, there are 11
traffic signals en route my office. Yes, you heard it right, 11. And now I am
stuck at the 7th signal. The light is still red. The timer ticks down.
As usual, through my black Rayban, under my helmet, I have been scanning around
to check whether any chicks are there or not. Damn! What a day! Forget chicks,
not even a single lady soul around.
Suddenly, I felt a cool breeze
around me. I just turned around and saw a beautiful pink Scooty Pep that just
reached on my right. I looked up, obviously with high expectations. And there
she is, with a dark blue helmet, a ladies cooling glass, a slight shade of lip
gloss…yeah, she was not just beautiful.. she was just awesome! I saw that her
two ears are plugged in with a headset and obviously she is enjoying music, and
not at all looking around. Can’t she just turn her face around? Can’t she see
this smart guy on his beautiful Vespa, standing just besides her? Then it hit
hard on me! May be I am not smart or handsome enough for her? Or does she have
a boyfriend? Oh, why the hell am I thinking all these! But, why the hell can’t
I take my eyes off her! I felt as if I am moving backwards as in a dream…No, wait..is
she moving forward? Away from me? Oh no.. wait sweetie…
HONK!!HONK!!!HOOONK!!!!
What’s that? Oh my God! The
signal had turned green and I was stuck in her thoughts. I could see a long line
of vehicles behind me , with their drivers calling sweet words on me! I looked
around.. she is gone. I started my scooter with a heavy heart.
I reached my office, obviously
late, and I sank into my seat with disturbing thoughts. Yes, I have been
thinking about her all my way to the office. And still now, she is disturbing
me. I have seen more beautiful and sexier girls than her, but, why my thoughts
are so stuck with her? I have a hell lots of work to do and still why that girl
is holding me back from doing that? Am I in love?? I laughed out at that
thought. Falling in love with a girl that you met at a traffic signal, whom you
will never ever meet again? Or at least the probability of meeting the same
girl again is very very low…close to zero! But still, there is a slight chance
of meeting her. For the first time in many years, I prayed to God, which I
never do as an atheist, that let that slim probability be true. After all, God
itself is a big probability!
The day passed by without much
events. After giving the responsibility of sorting out on the probability stuff
to God, I started off with my job as usual. But still, the day seemed a bit
different to me. I was immersed in thoughts. My colleagues thought I was
planning something for my projects, but they never knew I was thinking about my
‘project’. After my office hours, as I was riding back to my apartment, I
wanted a traffic block at very signal, so that I can look for her. I looked for
that pink Scooty Pep at every other signal, but I couldn’t find any sign of
her. I felt sad and my belief on that slim probability started to fade. God?
After all, He Himself is a goddamn probability!
I had a bit more beer the last
night as I had to get a fast sleep so that I don’t think much of that Scooty
girl and screw my sleep. And, for me, everything seemed so slow and boring.
Again, as usual, I was on the road, with my Vespa. And, here I am, stuck at
some traffic signal, I did not bother to count which one, as I usually do. The
signal is still red. I took off my shades and rubbed my eyes and had a clear
look forward. I am far behind the queue, and I don’t think I will go through
this signal in this go. As I was about to put back my glasses on, I saw it…a
pink Scooty! Will it be her? The Scooty is about 10 meters in front of me. I
want to reach there, somehow! I looked around for space. Damn! Come on…Yes! I
turned my Vespa to my right, squeezed in between two cars, dropped into a gap
on to the extreme right side of the road. I moved forward with my eyes stuck on
the Scooty. I looked up on the traffic light and I can see that only 30 seconds
remaining for the red to turn green! Come on, please help me, my divine
probability! I kept on moving forward through that congested space. I can see
the seconds rolling down..7..6..5..4..i am almost there! I reached just behind
the Scooty and damn, the signal turned green and the traffic moved.
I was a bit disappointed but
still I had a hope of catching her in the next signal. I kept my scooter just
behind her without letting her go away this time. And as I had expected, the
traffic stopped at the next signal. I looked up. I have 60 seconds. I moved my
Vespa to my right and forward to the Scooty’s right. I held my breath for a
second and looked casually to my left. My heart was beating like Shivamani’s
drums! I was praying to the divine probability, “this should be her, please!” And I looked at Scooty owner’s face.
Yes, that was her! Unknowingly, a smile carved out of my face. I did not
realize that I was smiling at her. I know my smile was out of relief,
happiness….love. But, not for someone who watches it. And here, that someone
was herself! She was looking right at me! The smile on my face was dead. I
don’t know whether I look like an idiot now. I couldn’t even turn my face away.
I was stuck in a catch 22 situation, or to put in a better way, ‘caught 22”
situation. She was not wearing her shades and those eyes were drilling into me.
Of course I can look in to those eyes and be there for my lifetime, because
those were such a beautiful pair of eyes I have ever met with, but not now.
Those eyes are killing me, in all the possible ways. Is she angry? Or is she
being sarcastic? Will she slap me now? Fortunately or unfortunately, the signal
turned green, and the honks from behind made her drift away her stare and leave
me in peace. But, the traffic light on the way for me to reach her heart, still
remained red.
Even though, I met her again, my
office hours were still dull. Mixed thoughts troubled me like anything. What
could have she thought? Why didn’t she tell anything? Will I meet her again? I
looked up to the divine probability. Yet again.
Evening. I was on the way back to
my room and again stuck at a traffic signal. As I was just checking the fuel
gauge, I felt a scooter just came and stopped to my right. I looked up and it
was her! Oh my God…what will happen now…She took off her helmet and let her
hair fly free. I saw her wavy, brownish hair, flying free in the soft wind,
with the evening sun pouring its beauty on them. That was a beautiful sight for
me. Suddenly, she looked at me and again, my eyes got locked in hers. And then
happened the unexpected. She smiled at me! I was shocked, a smile when I was
expecting a slap? I couldn’t believe it. I turned to my left to check whether
she smiled at me or someone else to my left. No, there is no one there. She was
smiling at me! And on top of that, she said, “Hi”. I felt like I was clean
bowled by the best bowler in the world!
Bliss!
Bliss!
I wanted to say a “hi” back, but those words got stuck in my throat. But,
somehow, I managed a “hi” back, which was in a shivering voice and half of that
word came out. She might have thought that I coughed. I did not know what else
to say and I guess, even she was clueless what to say. And what to say in the
middle of a traffic jam! Suddenly, the horns started blaring and the traffic
light turned green. I had a wicked smile on my face as I started my Vespa,
thinking that the traffic light on the way to reach her heart has also turned
green…
I did not want to drink that
night and sleep fast. I did not want to stop myself from thinking about her. Even
though it was just a smile and small ‘hi’, that meant like an Oscar and Nobel
at the same time for me! Will I meet her tomorrow? Dammit! If I meet her again,
I should open my mouth and talk…ask her out…ask her phone number…talk a lot…and
propose her! Thinking and thinking about a thousand things about her, I slept
off at some point of the night. May be the sweetest slip off to sleep in my
life!
I was totally a different man the
next morning. Woke up early, got ready, had breakfast and raced to the road
with a big smile on my face and a broad
smile in my heart. Somehow, my mind was telling me that I was going to meet her
today. At some traffic signal, on the pink Scooty Pep, under the dark blue
helmet, a beautiful face will be waiting for me…One may ask me , “what the hell! You haven’t talked to her…You
don’t know who she is…and you are in love with her? “ . Yes, that’s a
logical question to ask, but, I don’t know, I feel so. For the first time in my
life, I started to love traffic signals!!!
1…2…3…4..I was counting the
traffic signals as I went past each of them. Finally, I reached the 7th
traffic signal. I looked around…couldn’t find a pink Scooty. I looked around
again. Yes! There it is! The pink Scooty. Is she wearing a jacket today? May be
, it’s a cold morning. I found some space and rode my Vespa to the spot I found
the Vespa. With a smile, I looked up to my left. Oops! That was some old man
riding on a Scooty. My smile faded. Where is she? Has she taken a day off from
work? I looked up to the traffic light. 80 more seconds. My heart was racing to
reach the next signal and get stuck, and then look for her. But, 80 more
seconds.
“Taaza Khabar..Taaza Khabar”, a newspaper
boy was walking around with newspapers held up in his hands. I see him every
other day. Must be around 12 -13 years of age. Poor chap! I thought of buying
one copy and kill the remaining 60 seconds. I could see many people buying the
newspaper this morning and I wondered what could be the reason?
“Hey, one copy here”, I called
upon the boy. “Sir, hot news, sir, sirf paanch rupiah”, he was excited to get
his 5 Rs. I bought the newspaper and gave him the money. I looked up. 30 more
seconds. OK. Let me read the main page.
“Sachin Retires…mmm..yeah, he
should…Modi or Rahul? : The Big Debate…who ever comes , increase the salary…”, I
was going through each headlines and suddenly I got stuck on that news.
“ 23 year old girl raped and
murdered by 3 people”, I thought, “ That’s like a common news nowadays..mmm..”,
but the photo of the girl tore my heart apart. That was her! The girl that
smiled to me a day back! The girl who taught me to see dreams!
I was stunned, shocked and
destroyed! I couldn’t come back to my senses for a while…I could hear faint
voices of people swearing at me for not moving my scooter when the traffic
light turned green…I could hear faint voices of blaring horns of vehicles
behind me…I couldn’t move a muscle….I stayed there numb…dreams shattered…heartbroken…I
have lost a girl who had conquered my heart with just a smile and a simple word…just
when I thought the light had turned green for me to go for her heart…
…and I looked up. The traffic
light has turned.. red.